Why we heal

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Hi beautiful souls,

And hello, October! A deep month for healing, for letting go, for transformation. We’ve passed the fall equinox, ushering in a season with more darkness in our days than light, more cool in the air than warmth. This is nothing to lament or run from. It means more time to come inward, more time to connect with the light and warmth within us rather than simply reaching for it outside of us. It means more time to expand inwardly rather than just outwardly. I don’t believe it’s a coincidence that I see an uptick in healing clients coming in ready do the inner work in the fall. This season is truly designed for our healing and inner growth.

There is a Buddhist teaching that always resonated deeply with me. It holds that within each of us is a radiant, luminous, brilliant diamond. Our healing and spiritual practices are not about taking us outside ourselves. Our healing and spiritual practices are about taking us inward to buff away the rough rock that covers that diamond. Our healing and spiritual practices are about unveiling that radiance, luminosity and brilliance that’s been in us all along.

People often think healing is about fixing parts of us that are broken, or trying to become something different or ‘better.’ I think healing is more about coming home to ourselves. Rather than fixing what seems broken, we go deep within ourselves to see the parts of us that are whole. Rather that transforming into something new, we work to see and clear through the blocks and masks that have been veiling that which is already whole within us. In the light of all that is whole, we can see, integrate and heal our fears and shadows with courage and strength. In the light of all that is whole, we can let our true radiance shine.

I went through a deep journey of personal healing myself last month. I had some long-held dreams come to fruition recently, and in opening to allow myself to truly receive what my heart had been calling for, I was tasked to see and move through all the ways I was still holding myself back. All the old stories, fears, and pains that were veiling that receptivity and light within me. Deeper layers of my healing called me inward. It was humbling, a reminder that healing is a journey rather than a destination. It was strengthening, knowing the deeper I go within my own healing, the deeper I’m able to take all of you in yours. It was enlightening, a reminder of the power that comes when we commit to our healing.

We heal to uncover the parts of ourselves that our whole. We heal to find deeper connections to ourselves and those we share our lives with. We heal to be more present for our joys. We heal to be more compassionate for our pains. We heal to allow more space to receive what our heart and soul are calling in. We heal to let go of what is holding us back. We heal to find more calm, clarity, and ease. We heal to find more courage, steadiness, strength. We heal to let the light in. We heal to let our light shine. We heal to find our humanity and be better partners, parents, children, siblings, lovers, friends, and community members. We heal to become better stewards and shepherds of this earth. We heal to find peace. We heal to find love. We heal to come back home to ourselves.

To be human is to heal. To heal is to be human. I think the ones most willing to attend to their own healing are the ones who hold the greatest courage, strength, and power. They are the ones ready to turn towards rather than away, towards both the light and the shadow, both the joy and the pain. The world needs more people committed to healing, individually and collectively. The world needs more people ready to rise in in courage rather than run in fear, to work towards more unity and equality rather than divisiveness and disparity, to hold more love and compassion rather than indifference and hate. Both within us and around us.

Coming together

The journey of healing is not always easy, but the rewards are great. For you and for us all. May you find within you the courage to heal, and the courage to rise to all the light and power in you.

If you’d like support in your healing journey, I am always here for you. Full details on my intuitive healing offerings are here, and you can book a healing here, in-person or remotely - both hold the same format and efficacy.

For those looking to heal alongside community, join me for my New Moon Healing Circle October 28. This new moon is in Scorpio, the sign that knows it is often in journeying through the darkest depths that we find the brightest lights. We will go deep in this one, that I promise :) Our TRANSFORM Retreat has sold out yet again, but send me a note if you'd like to join the waitlist should a spot open up. And for my Reiki I healers, a reminder Reiki Level II is coming up November 16.


May this month bring you healing. May this month bring you wholeness. May this month take you home to yourself, to all that radiance, luminosity and brilliance that's been in you all along.

With love,
ayah x

The magic happens out on the edge

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Hi beautiful souls,

What a whirlwind of a summer – did you feel it too?

I pushed a lot of edges of vulnerability this summer. Figuring I had nothing to lose (spoiler: I didn’t!), I shared things I usually wouldn’t have said. I went for things I usually wouldn’t have gone for. And the funny thing is, I learned the results of those courageous words or actions actually weren’t the point. The process of pushing my edges took me to wild new territory. Most of that wild new territory was actually within me. I touched new depths and capacities of my heart. I found more clarity and connection right where I was. I opened up to greater guidance and grace for all that was, all that is, and all that lies ahead.

Healing takes a lot of courage. I tell it to my clients all the time. It takes courage to make a leap and come in for intuitive healing, which is a brand new, on-the-edge thing for most of you. It takes courage to be willing to see the sticky, icky parts of us that are begging to be seen and felt so they can be released and healed. It takes courage to let our highest selves in, to trust our hearts, to trust our souls, even when it goes far beyond what our minds’ may think or know.

Our path of healing is a path of coming home to ourselves. Masks off. Walls down. Our path of healing will, one way or the other, take us out onto a new edge. A new territory. It will often require us to go against the voice of the choir, to disrupt some aspects of what was safe and secure. Sometimes this is scary, and that’s ok. It’s important to go at your own pace. As I always say in my yoga classes, we want to find that point that feels like an edge, to work with that edge, breathe into that edge, move past that edge, but we never want to throw ourselves into a place of pain.

Here’s what I promise you, from over a decade of pushing past some pretty big edges and landing myself into a beautiful life far beyond what I could have imagined: pushing past that edge will never take you anywhere other than right where you’re supposed to be. You’ll look back and wonder what you were holding onto all those years. Pushing past that edge will take you to new depths and heights. Pushing past that edge will tune you into a new source and embodiment of your power. Pushing past that edge will make you free. Beautifully and blissfully free of all the constraints and heaviness that held you back.

I have a piece of art in my home, made for me by a friend many years ago when I left my first corporate job to step into a new chapter of a creatively crafted life. It's a play on a Kurt Vonnegut quote: “The magic happens out on the edge. Out on the edge you can see all sorts of things you can’t see from the centre.”

Once you see that view, once you feel that magic, there's no turning back (another spoiler: you won't want to!). What new frontiers is your courageous heart calling you toward?

Coming together

September always feels like a new beginning for me. Seasonally, we bask in the bounty of harvest season and begin to step into a change of seasons, a chance to release the old. For many, it’s back to school, time to start a new chapter. And this month I celebrate Rosh Hashanah, the Jewish New Year, a holiday where we put special emphasis on welcoming in sweet new beginnings. No matter where this summer took you, I invite you to find your edge and step forward with courage to all that calls your heart.

If you’re feeling the call for some deep shifts in your life, so much to share! Reiki Level I is up September 21, a beautiful opportunity to take your healing and spiritual growth into your own hands (literally!), be it for your mind, heart, body and/or spirit.

New Moon Circles are back (YAY!), next up on September 26 for the New Moon in Libra. Libra is the sign of beauty, love, peace and balance, so if you’re calling in any of these, come join for some meditation, intuitive guidance, and community support.

Our TRANSFORM Retreat is coming up October 4 – 6, a weekend full of yoga, meditation, healing, breakthrough coaching, delicious food, soul family connections, and personal and collective transformations co-hosted with my soul sister and Transformational Coach Zoe Paliare. Retreats have been so instrumental in my own spiritual journey, and I can’t wait to share this magic with you! (p.s. we have a special extension of earlybird pricing on 'til September 9, so snag your spot soon if it calls!)

As always, I’m here to work with you to find your courage, power, wisdom and light through Intuitive Healing sessions, in-person in Toronto or globally via remote sessions (same format and effects, no matter where you are!). The heart of the healing I share is a deep coming home to yourself, the place of calm, clarity and connection that always lies deep within you. It's a beautiful place to find your courage and magic.

May this fall usher in a beautiful new beginning for you, one in which you are able to see and root deeper into all the courage, power and light that's been in you all along.

With love,
ayah x

All That Power

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Hi beautiful souls,

What a month! I feel like I’m still wrapped in grace from my time with my teacher Amma, and rooted in power from my time with an incredible crew of women at our PAUSE retreat last weekend.

My time with Amma showed me just how much I’m capable of when I let the limits and stories of my mind go. How grace is always flowing generously and abundantly, and it’s often our minds that are the ones standing in our own way. How guidance is always there if we let out minds and hearts soften, open and surrender. How peace is a choice and an anchor for us all.

My time with the PAUSE family showed me just how much we’re all capable of when we’re honest, open and vulnerable with ourselves and each other. How interwoven we all are on the threads of life, and how much sweeter our journeys are when we support each other. It was a true honour, gift and joy to see each and every woman step so courageously into the strength, peace, depth, and love that has always been in them. To see them own their stories and their transformations, and step so boldly into their power in such unique and beautiful ways.

Our minds can get muddy and veiled. Connecting with our power is not about finding something outside of us. It’s learning to reconnect with all that’s inside of us. Others may guide and support you, but only you hold the key to that door. And there’s a special beauty that comes when you begin to see and touch your power. You realize it’s nothing new. It’s always been there. It is always there. It will always be there. It’s the mind that veils it. Your heart always knows.

Coming together

We’re coming out of the winds of transformation eclipse season and Mercury retrograde brought, and stepping into an auspicious period beginning with last night’s new moon. We’re in the heart of Leo season. Leo holds the energy of the sun, warm, bright, life-giving, life-affirming. Leo is symbolized by the lion, courageous, strong, bold, full of heart. The new moon marks a time for introspection and new beginnings. What power in you is knocking at the doors of your heart, beckoning to emerge? What light in you is begging to shine? What does your most rich and full life look like, and how can you step into it with courage, strength and trust?

Lots of updates on my end from July's month of transformation. I'm continuing to be guided to step deeper into my calling, gifts and depth as a healer. As such, I’ve refined my healing offerings to have Intuitive Healing as the base, combining Reiki and energy healing along with intuitive guidance channeled to you in the format of a guided meditation during your session. A coming together of my years of training and practice in different modalities, this session is offered both in-person and remotely, with the safe format and effects for either. Full details on the updated offerings are here.

I’m also thrilled to be guiding a new group of self-healers and healers in Reiki Level I and II this fall. While studying Reiki was my gateway into the path of a healer, it has also been instrumental in empowering me to show up for myself as my own best healer, which is why I love teaching it so much. Reiki helps aid healing for a variety of issues, from anxiety and stress, to chronic physical and emotional pain. It helps empaths and sensitive souls stay grounded and protected, and is an incredible catalyst for your intuitive and spiritual growth. Full details are here if you feel called to explore further!

And lastly, if all that retreat talk had you inspired, I have good news… we all loved it so much, we’re doing it again! Save the date for TRANSFORM, our fall retreat coming this October 4 – 6. Full details will be live next week, but if you want to be the first to know, hit reply and I’ll keep you posted :)

May you step into your power this month with courage and strength. May you push past your limits and allow yourself to receive and give abundantly. May you let your light shine as bright as this mid-summer sun, and may you begin to see what a gift that light is for us all.

All my love,
ayah

Let that inner child free!

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I’m just over a month in to The Artist’s Way, a beautiful journey of expanding your creativity with a heavy dose of spiritual inspiration. The first few weeks were a lot of getting back to the inner child, reminding myself what it was like when there was more time for play, more space for creativity, and an open-ended freedom of days and life ahead. Synchronistically, I noticed the inner child popping up for clients in healing sessions more and more, looking for a little extra TLC. Looks like many of us are being called back to the days of extended summer vacation!

We often make our lives so heavy with all our goals and obligations. And then we fill our spare time with our adult things. We read our intellectual books. We watch our shows. We go to the bar. We go to the gym or the studio. We cook our meals and we run our errands. These are all beautiful and many necessary, but spare time filled with only these can often be so… adult-y!

We were all kids once. And we don’t lose that kid as we grow. That kid stays with us. Many of the main issues that pop up in our adult lives, particularly fears, have their roots in things we experienced as a kid, be it scarcity, control, suppression, abandonment, or other forms of trauma, abuse or lack. Often learned as a coping mechanism, many of us downplay our childhood wounds, thinking "oh, what I experienced wasn’t so bad compared to X, Y or Z." But for that inner child, whatever difficulty you went through (and we all went through them, trust me!) was a lot to handle. And if it isn’t addressed and healed, it can stick with you, following you around like a shadow. By identifying and healing at the root, we are able to heal how these issues manifest in our current lives.

Making peace, finding freedom

That’s one side of the healing, perhaps more of the depth. But just like life, there is the light side too! Coming back to the freedom, levity and playful spirit kids seem to know best.

What did you love to do as a kid? Collect treasures found in nature? Blow bubbles? Build forts? Make crafts? Make art? Play games? Read stories? Sing? Dance?

Choose one (or more!), and make space to revisit it this month. Head out to the park and look for treasures as you stroll – acorns, pinecones, special stones, maybe even look at a patch of clovers and see if you find that lucky four-leaf one. Make something just for the fun of it – a painting, a craft, a story, a song, a fort. It doesn’t even matter how it turns out… see if you can allow yourself to just enjoy the fun of the process of making. This process is for no one but yourself and your inner child. Let yourself free. Let yourself play. Let yourself enjoy.

I keep coming back to the words I wrote after my Italy trip around this time last year. That our souls come to this earth plane to learn, to grow, to help each other and to push forward all our evolution… but also, to play! And that the simple and easy pleasures can be as beautiful, illuminating and soul-nourishing as the deep and complex depths.

It’s the heart of summer. Take it easy. Make time to play. Enjoy the richness. Enjoy the fullness. Carve space to be a kid again :)

Coming together

We're knee-deep in the feels of Cancer season (the new moon is tomorrow, July 2), and have a few eclipses coming up (July 2 and 16) as well as Mercury retrograde this month (July 7 - 31). Whew! Cancer season helps us get in touch with our feels, our creativity, our intuition, and all the ways we're called to care for and nurture ourselves and others. Eclipses bring up our shadows, revealing what has been hidden and is now calling for our healing. Mercury retrograde invited us to look at our past, tie up loose ends, and take it easy in a period of reviewing and renewing. The skies are most certainly calling us to our healing this month. Have courage and compassion with yourself as you move through, but remember also to make space for levity and play to balance it all out :)

If you need support in your healing, I'm always here to help through a healing session, in-person or remotely. Between my personal retreat time with my teacher Amma (details below if you'd like to meet her) and hosting PAUSE, I only have about 10 days open for private sessions this month- as always, you can snag a spot here!

Our heart-of-summer PAUSE Retreat is officially waitlist only, but we may have an extra room open for 1-2 more... so if your heart has been nudging you, reply back and we'll add your name to the list! It's a dream come true so many of you jumped at this chance, so there will definitely be more retreats for us all in the future :) If you can't make it on retreat but still need some nourishing time to pause, feel free to drop in for a yoga or meditation class or dig in to some reflection cues for your summer expansion via my summer solstice post.

May you make time for play, joy, and freedom this month, no matter what waves life brings your way. May you tune back in to all that lit you up as a kid, and rediscover that lightness and levity that's been in your spirit all along.

With love,
ayah

The Personal is Relational

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Hi  beautiful souls,

Happy June, happy summer (almost!), happy new moon! Today marks a new moon in Gemini, the sign that is curious, communicative, brimming with ideas, and always up for a little fun. New moons are a time for introspection and coming inward, and yet Gemini is ever so sociable, so this particular new moon gives us a good opportunity to reflect on our relationships.
 
Last month seemed to bring so many of my karmic connections to the forefront, giving me an opportunity to see a little deeper into the ways we’re all connected, and how we help shape each other. It also reminded me that so much of our personal healing is relational – healing from wounds others have consciously or unconsciously inflicted on us, and wounds we may have consciously or unconsciously inflicted on others. We hold on to judgments, bitterness, resentments, the whole lot. And more often than not, those eat us up inside, taking up so much precious space in our minds and hearts. Our healing happens when we learn to release that judgment, bitterness, and resentment, and there we find space for more peace, acceptance and compassion. 
 

I was reading a story from Ram Dass, a beloved spiritual teacher, relayed to him from one of his friends in NYC. She was walking down the street and saw a truck cut off a woman in her car. The woman in the car was livid, but couldn't quite find the words to express her rage. She leaned out her window, shook her fist, and sputtered out: “You… you… you… weird manifestation of God, you!”
 
And aren’t we all? Doesn’t that concept help take some of the load off? Rather than judging everyone as right or wrong, this way or that, holding on to all the related bitterness and resentment, to just go, wow – aren’t we all such weird manifestations of God? I know I certainly am. I bet you are too. And so are our greatest loves. And so are our greatest nemeses. We’re all just weird manifestations of God. (And if God doesn’t resonate with you – we’re all just weird manifestations of consciousness, Spirit, the universe, the human race... you get the jam.)
 
And when you look at it that way – there’s less space for judgment to come in. There’s no right, perfect, best manifestation of God (ok, maybe some saints have that down, but I'm talking about you and me in all our human-ness!), just a whole lot of weird ones. As my teacher Amma reminded us on my last retreat with her, there are over seven billion humans on this planet. Seven billion ways of perceiving the world. Seven billion ways of expressing oneself in the world. Seven billion weird manifestations of God. Pretty wild, isn’t it?
 

Making peace, finding freedom

Now it should go without saying, this doesn’t mean you let everything from everyone slide. It certainly doesn’t mean you don’t stand up against injustices or harm you see others perpetuate, or that you back away from confrontation in situations that need resolving. In fact, the more you root into your weird manifestation of God, the more you are called to shape the world you see in the ways you are called to shape it. This happens by being exactly who we are, creating what we're called to create, serving how we're called to serve, expressing what we're called to express. And that, in turn, often helps to guide and inspire others. But you don’t try to force your ways down everyone’s throat. You don’t try to change everyone into some perfect model. You can say and do your piece, but ultimately, you are not responsible for changing others. That has to come from within them. Just like your change comes from within you.
 
The peace is made when you realize: I am free to be me. You are free to be you.
 
And – I am rooted so strongly in myself that I don’t need to bend or break for you. I am also rooted so strongly in myself that I don’t need to change you. My discernment and discretion are strong enough to keep me anchored in my light, and my boundaries are strong enough to not allow in what will sway me from that light. 
 
Again, I'm not talking about holding this mindset towards those who cause you or others real and serious harm. That needs to be addressed, and by all means, speak up! I'm talking about the judgments that creep up in our relationships: "I can't believe she did this...," "Can you believe he said that...," "Why can't they just...," etc. It is too easy to set ourselves apart from others by our judgments, to hold onto our resentments and bitterness, to believe ourselves better or superior. We all hold light and we all hold shadow. We're all just weird manifestations of God. 

Keep rooting into the truest manifestation of you, attending to your healing, and stepping into your growth. When you notice the judgment, bitterness or resentment creep up, look closer – is there something you are called to say or do to shift the dynamic? If so, take action. That will help free you. If not, remember: “I am free to be you. You are free to be you.” That will help free you, too.
 

Coming together

I invite you this new moon and this new month to look a little closer into your relationships. Those who have lifted you, and those who have hurt you. Those who have inspired you, and those who have triggered you. Each is a teacher. 

If you need support in working through any relational hurts, judgments, bitterness, resentments, or attachments, I’m always here to help through a healing session. A lot of our pain is held in our energetic body, and healings can help bring to light what has been buried, clear what has been stuck, and open up more freedom and space for what you’re calling in. As always, you can book directly here.

If you’re called to gather with a like-hearted community, join me for Practicing Presence, a chance to dive a little deeper into the magic of the moment, or a yoga or meditation class. We also have just two (!) spots left for our heart-of-summer PAUSE Retreat. We have a truly magic crew coming so far, and if your heart has been nudging you, we’d love to have you join us :)

May this month bring you more harmony, within your relationships and within yourself. May you root into an open heart, strong boundaries, and steady footing. May you be free to be you, in all your glory.

With love,
ayah
 

There Is No Rush

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Hi  beautiful souls,

It seems many of us are resting in some form of liminal space, along with this elusive spring. I've been tested the last while on my presence in the midst of numerous transitions, many of which are finally coming to fruition this month (read on!), and some of which are still incubating. I laugh when I reflect on my twenties and how fast I leapt from change to change, living what feels like multiple lifetimes in one decade alone. My thirties are teaching me patience. How to be present and trusting in the liminal spaces, the gestating periods, the cocoons. Some things take a while to nurture. Things aren't always clear in the in-between. But then we arrive and understand, aha – no part of the journey was to be missed.

We want to get everywhere so fast. We have a dream today, and think it needs to manifest tomorrow. We know a chapter is beginning to close, and think we need to run out immediately. Our ego mind (and much of the world we’ve created) wants what it wants now. Our souls (and the wisdom of nature) teach us patience.

The bud blooms at its own pace, trusting its rooting and moving towards the light that beckons its reach. We can’t force the bloom open – we’d lose the beauty and fragrance. We can’t pull the bud to reach taller, bigger, faster – it would lose its roots. If you are in a stage of growth, trust your process and your path. Patience. There is no rush.

The snake instinctively sheds its skin, but it cannot force it all off at first go. It knows the shedding will unfold at its own time. If you are in a stage of release, trust your process and your path. Patience. There is no rush.

We may see a butterfly struggling to emerge from the chrysalis, but we can’t rip it open. If we let the butterfly out sooner than its ready for, its development is threatened and potential lessened. If you are seeing someone move through their own process, you can stand steadily by their side for support, but you cannot force them nor can you do it for them. Patience. There is no rush.

There’s beauty and wisdom in the process. Let it unfold. Present, aware, and trusting in the journey.

Patience. There is no rush.

Change is in the air

I've been taking my own medicine, practicing patience in the process of these transitions, many of which have been incubating for a while. They certainly weren't planned to coincide in such a short period of time, but it does feel like a spring rebirth now that it's all happening. There's a lot shaking, so here we go!

New Moon Circle – my last (!) one is this Thursday, May 2. I’ve been hosting these for a year and a half now, and with the close of the Quiet Co home on King West and my 1:1 healing practice growing, it feels like the right time to wrap this one up. I’ll still be sharing New Moon wisdom – stay tuned to my Instagram for that. In the meantime, just a few spots are left for the final hurrah!

Art of Intuition – this is also the last time I'll be hosting this workshop publicly in Toronto for the foreseeable future, so if it’s been on your radar, now’s the time!

Summer Retreat – and now for some new beginnings! I’m thrilled to share my first retreat alongside my dear friend and rockstar Transformational Coach Zoe Paliare. We're gathering on peaceful Lake Cecebe in the heart of summer to PAUSE – an opportunity to take space, be present, and breathe, deeply and fully. Earlybird pricing is on til May 24, and full scoop is here.

Class farewells – alas, we’re saying farewell to our Quiet Co home on King West due to building construction. I’ll be teaching my regular Thursday classes there until May 23, if you want to come for one last midday sit :) The Quiet Co will still be sharing their magic in a new form, so stay tuned!

Class hellos – I’m thrilled to join the +focus mindspace team, a new meditation, movement and art studio on Ossington. You can catch me here Monday evenings, and all classes are FREE (!) up until May 15. I'll also be sharing a brand new Practicing Presence workshop there on June 6. It’s a peaceful, bright, comfortable, art-filled space… come visit! 

Healing hurrahs – these remain steady as always at my West Queen West studio :) Many of the farewells above are to make more space for the growing number of you coming for healings. It’s been a joy to welcome many new faces along with some of you who have been with me since the beginning, and to see what beautiful transitions so many of you have stepped into. If you are called for support on your healing and/or spiritual journey, find me here.
 

May you practice presence and patience with the process in this season of transitions. May you remember all is unfolding in divine timing. Patience. There is no rush. You are right where you need to be in this beautiful stage of your becoming.

With love,
ayah

p.s. tell me, are you moving through any big (or small!) transitions? What have they been teaching you? I'd love to hear from you! 💗

Your Roots Are A Sacred Gift

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Hi  beautiful souls,

Happy spring! I just returned from a soul-nourishing trip to Winnipeg to visit my family. I was born in Winnipeg (fourth generation, as my Zaida never fails to bring up when introducing me!), and spent my childhood summers there with my grandparents. I flew out on my birthday, and there was something so grounding and uplifting about returning to my birthplace on my birthday. The time with my family nourished my soul in such a special way, and had me thinking a lot of the importance of honouring our roots.

I’ve taken a deeper return to my cultural roots in the last couple of years. I always laugh at how it took my Hindu spiritual teacher to lead me back to my Jewish roots. While my spiritual work deepened with her, I found my intuition calling me to explore a little more of my own roots. Synchronistic connections abounded. I found my heart lifted at lighting Shabbat candles, and my body nourished by the foods my ancestors have made for generations. I found myself crying tears (sometimes sobs) of resonance to Jewish prayers. I found myself called to dive back into some of Judaism and Kaballah’s texts, and found new resonance in their sacred teachings and symbols. Not in contrast to all the teachings that lit up my soul in India, but rather complimentary to. My teacher knew my soul, and she was leading me right back home to myself. I found a new grounding in my roots.

On a spiritual level, I believe nothing about our lives is by chance. There’s a reason your soul was born into your family and cultural background. There’s a reason you were born in the exact location and time you were, and why you grew up in the place and circumstances you did. There’s a reason you’ve been guided to the friends and teachers you’ve been guided to. All parts of your life are designed to help you heal and fulfill the growth your soul is calling to. And if you’re interested in deepening your understanding of yourself and your path, chances are your roots hold some potent keys to your path of blossoming. Your roots are a sacred gift.
 

Honouring all our roots

Reconnecting to your roots (in your own way, however calls your heart) offers you many chances to better understand yourself. To better understand what nourishes, guides and uplifts you. To gain some clues to why you may see the world in the way you do. It offers you chances to find connection and community, to feel a sense of belonging shared understanding. And as you find a deeper reverence for your roots, you may find a deeper reverence for the traditions of others.

In this globalized world, it seems we’re in a rush to modernize everything and ignore the deep and ancient roots. We take yoga as a fitness practice, ignoring the broader system of wisdom and practices gifted to us by the ancient Indian Rishis (seers) to help us find harmony in ourselves and the world. We use sage and palo santo as air fresheners rather than sacred medicinal herbs, ignoring the cries of Indigenous leaders and endangering these gifts from the earth. We think the latest 'high-vibe' thing is always outside of ourselves, elsewhere, rather than within, right here at home. When we don't attend to our roots, we limit our growth. And when we ignore our own roots and appropriate others, we lose a big part of our potential for connection, with each other and ourselves. 

This doesn’t mean you’re confined to a box of your own history. I believe our souls are beyond the boundaries of the ancestry we were born into, and you may find a deep resonance in other traditions. But in this age of commercialization and overconsumption, we need to take care. Treat all your tools and teachings as sacred, and take time to explore the ancient history and meaning they hold rather than just skimming the surface. Honour all you already have and are rather than jumping towards the latest thing. 

Take time to explore your own ancestry and history. Maybe that looks like connecting more with your family and learning your personal history. Maybe that looks like exploring what ancient herbs, symbols, deities, traditions, and teachings were used on your ancestral lands. Maybe that means tuning back into your cultural, religious and/or spiritual traditions, foods and arts with a new curiosity. Maybe some parts don’t resonate, and that's ok. But you may find new gifts there, ones that give you the keys to the doors that lead you right back home to yourself.

Winter teaches us that while the surface blooms may be gone, the roots are always holding, nourishing, and growing beneath the surface. And as the weather warms and the light returns in Spring, those roots offer us their gifts, bright and beautiful bounty. Perhaps your own roots hold equal bounty for you, too :)

Come back home to yourself

If you need support with some inner spring-cleaning and re-grounding back home to yourself, I’m always here to help support you in a healing session. My style of intuitive healing helps you get below the surface to see the connections amongst your physical, mental, emotional and spiritual health and help heal issues at their root, from the inside out. As always, you can book online here. 

If you’re called to gather for some group healing + intention setting, join me for the New Moon Circle in Aries, the sign that teaches us independence, determination, courage, and how rich and full life can be when we approach everything with a sense of adventure and zest for life. If you're looking to begin or deepen an existing meditation practice, I'm super excited to share some of my favourite practices with you in the Art of Meditation series, diving into how we can best calm, clarify and connect to our minds, bodies, hearts and spirits.
 
This month, may you behold the magic of the earth’s roots sprouting, and may that inspire you to turn back to your own roots, too. May you find grounding in your history, honouring and nurturing all that has held, shaped and supported you. And from this place of deep rooting, may you continue to blossom and bloom in the most bountiful of ways.

With love,
ayah

Emotional Alchemy

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Hi beautiful souls, 

As we move into the last of winter (I hope!) and the depths of Pisces season, it’s a good time to be present with all the feels – and perhaps, learn to appreciate them rather than resist them.

This is my second winter in Canada after spending two winters away, and as much as I’ve had my moments with the bone-chilling cold and ice, I also realize the opportunity winter affords us for our healing and our feeling. Winter is an introspective season, a time to go within. To process, rest and restore. To attend to our roots, what is buried deep within us.

And whatever emotions have been bubbling below the surface usually come to their head by the end of winter (if they haven’t already!) Our patience is worn thin, and we’re tired from all the extra energy it’s taken to keep up the hustle the world often expects from us, in what is intended to be a season of hibernation and restoration. It’s harder to stay rooted in our inner light and warmth when the outer world reflects the opposite… and that is ok!

There is nothing wrong with feeling all the feels. There is nothing wrong with feeling sad, or irritated, or angry, or hurt, or disappointed, or remorseful, or afraid, and so on. The problem comes where we label these emotions as ‘bad.’ When we get trapped in thinking we need to be in ‘good vibes only’ mode all the time. When try to force that, chances are, we bury our emotions. There, more often than not, those emotions fester and build below the surface, and the masks we put on wear us thin. Eventually, something explodes on us... and let's be honest, often on those we love as well.

But, there's another way. Instead of viewing these feelings as ‘bad,’ can you view them as messengers? As the great Sufi poet Rumi muses in one of my favourite poems (scroll to the end of the email to read :), can you welcome and entertain them all?

That anger – has someone crossed a boundary you need to address, or have you seen someone hurt in a way that once hurt you? Could that be fuel for change? That sadness – can you let it wash through you and trust it is helping you make space for a new emergence? That fear – can you dig a little deeper and see what the origin of this fear might be? Can you let the fear take you to its root to heal, and can you let it inform the right boundaries and safety measures as you move forward?
 

Portals of connection

The power of treating our emotions as messengers is that we’re afforded the opportunity to transmute themStep one is feeling all the feels. Step two is becoming an emotional alchemist, transmuting that anger to action, that sadness to spaciousness, that fear to freedom. Rather than letting those feelings fester below the surface, we can be proactive and welcome them, sit with them, and let them heal us, shape us, and grow us.

Emotions are big stuff. They’re also beautiful. They’re what make us human in all our glory. Those feelings that may not feel good are powerful teachers. Through contrast and the power of duality, they also help us better touch all that does feel good. Those who know the brightest light have often seen the darkest night. Those who know the most powerful love have often felt the deepest heartbreak. The more present we can be with our sorrows, the more richly and fully we will experience our joys. Knowing this, can you trust these feelings as sacred messengers rather than unwanted guests?

I welcome you to use this month to welcome rather than resist your emotions, to be a wizard of the feels, an alchemist of emotions. Maybe you got swept in the freedom and liberation of Marie Kondo-ing your physical home… can you imagine the freedom and liberation of Kondo-ing your inner world in time for spring? Breaking out of the cocoon is an agitating process for the butterfly, but it’s the only way to freedom. And its process cannot be rushed. Let yourself be with all that arises this month so that you may emerge to your highest-flying self for spring.

Let's gather together, shall we?

If you need support with this emotional alchemy and deep healing, I’m always here to help support you in a healing session. My style of intuitive healing helps you get below the surface to see the connections amongst your physical, mental, emotional and spiritual health and help heal issues at their root, from the inside out. As always, you can book online here. If you’re called to gather for some group healing + intention setting, join me for the New Moon Circle in Pisces, the sign of the healers and feelers. I also have the Art of Energy coming back in time for some energetic cleansing for spring, and for those seeking movement + meditation, yoga + meditation classes are on as always!
 
May you practice presence with all your emotions this month, and may you trust their power to strengthen you, soften you, and shape you.

With love,
ayah

Sacred Portals

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Hi beautiful souls,

I was in NYC a couple of weeks ago, and had the opportunity to see the Hilma af Klint 'Paintings for the Future' exhibit at the Guggenheim. Af Klint was a Swedish artist who created much of her abstract work in the early 1900s, long before this style was popular. Her work, like many great artists, went largely unrecognized while she was alive. But perhaps, this was part of the plan. Af Klint wrote in the notes for her estate explicit instructions that her work not be exhibited for at least 20 years until she passed. The world as it was then, she believed, was simply not ready to understand.

A century later, it’s the future. Clearly, we’re ready.

I had quite the transcendent experience climbing the Guggenheim’s spiraled floors, moving deeper and deeper into af Klint’s work. She was deeply spiritual, and her work reflected that. "The pictures were painted directly through me, without any preliminary drawings, and with great force," she said. "I had no idea what the paintings were supposed to depict; nevertheless I worked swiftly and surely, without changing a single brush stroke."

So many paintings felt like a portal into a deeper understanding of realityan opportunity to transcend the rational mind and see, perhaps, a broader truth. Some of her paintings mirrored energetic experiences I’ve had, my perception of the light and shadow within us, and the power in sacred symbols and patterns. In seeing these works, in a way, I too felt seen. Here is the work of a woman who passed decades before I was born, who lived in a completely different time and culture than my own, who worked in a different medium than my own, and yet – her work felt like it paralleled my work. Her way of seeing felt so close to my own.
 

Portals of connection

It’s easy in our world to feel disconnected, especially here in the ever-independently minded West, especially in this hibernate-or-bust season of winter. To feel alone in our little islands. But little portals of connection are always there for us, inviting us to see a little deeper into the interconnected web that holds us. Art can be a portal. Music can be a portal. That person on social media who speaks the truth you know in your heart. That person in your class who holds the presence you know in your bones. A smile from a stranger. A deep gaze in the eyes of a loved one. The feeling of connection is a portal, but so too is the feeling of aloneness, perhaps an opportunity to step into a deeper awakening or new calling.

I invite you this month to call in and honour the sacred portals and sacred connections you encounter, no matter how small. Maybe you open a new journal to map them out, or make a list on your phone. What do you see, and what does it awaken within you? How do you feel, and what does that open within you? There is no one like you, but there are also many people like you. Each flake of snow that falls is unique in its design, its path, and its landing, but they also come from the same source and are composed of the same substance. Isn’t that a little like us, too?
 

Let's gather together, shall we?

I offer healings and guide you through classes because those are the sacred portals for me, the things that bring me home to myself and awaken my highest knowing again, and again, and again. I share them not just because they are my medicine, but also because I believe deeply in my bones their potential to do the same for you. Perhaps this is part of our connection, too :)

If you’re called, join me for a private healing session to find that sacred portal and connection to your highest wisdom and expansion (as always, you can book online here.) We also have a few more spots left for this month's New Moon Circle, where we'll move through some guided portals together in the spirit of Aquarius, the revolutionary. For my Reiki students, last call for Reiki Level II, and for those seeking movement + meditation, yoga + meditation classes are on as always!
 
May you step with ease through the all doors waiting for you, portals ready to carry you, and connections ready to hold you. 

With love,
ayah

It's All In You

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Hi beautiful souls,

Happiest of new years to you!

‘Tis the season. New beginnings. Fresh starts. The whole year lays ahead of us, vast and sparkling like an open field after a fresh snow.

With the year full opportunity, it’s a great time to map out your resolutions and goals, all you want to call in, do and be. And while there’s nothing wrong with setting external goals, I encourage you to take the time to go within, too. Hard-set goals work beautifully for some people (earth signs, looking at you), but for many of us, they can leave us feeling defeated if they don’t materialize.

Here’s the thing. As many eastern philosophies teach us, the cause of the vast majority of our suffering is our attachments. We crave this or that, thinking when we get it, all things will finally fall into place. That mythical blanket of happiness will come down upon us. And sometimes it does, which is wonderful, but anything we gain outside ourselves is always temporary. That’s the nature of this world, just like our breath.

We inhale. We rest in places of fullness. We exhale. We rest in places of emptiness. And then again comes the inhale.

No breath can be held forever, just like no moment in time can be held forever. No person, place or thing rests eternally unchanging. Transformation is a guarantee. Try to hold that breath forever… even if you go blue in the face trying, eventually the wisdom of your body will override your mind and force that exhale. Life works a little like that too.
 

It's all in the feeling

Despite what the mind may say, at the heart level we know what we’re seeking isn’t actually the external thing. We want the job, the partner, the weight loss, the travel, the whatever, for the feeling they will evoke.

Here’s the secret of the ancient mystics and seers: none of those external things are the source of those feelings. The job doesn’t transport you to some magical office free from challenges – it awakens the feelings of purpose and fulfillment within you. The partner doesn’t emit some magical force-field of energy around them (even though sometimes it feels like that ;) – they awaken feelings already within you. Even those wild psychedelic trips… those substances don’t hold the world of visions within them – they unlock the doors of perception already within you (and because of this, yes, it’s very possible to unlock those doors without the psychedelics!)

That’s why eastern philosophies place so much emphasis on meditation. We turn inward to discover that all we’re seeking – the joy, the love, the bliss – is right within us. It doesn’t mean you shouldn’t work towards external goals or enjoy the wonder of the world around us. It means understanding the source is within you. The rest is just icing on the cake. With this knowledge, we learn to surrender our attachments a little more, and accept the highs and lows of life with a little more ease and grace.

So amongst all the energy of new beginnings, I encourage you to take some time to reflect not just on what you want to achieve this year, but also on how you want to feel. What’s that inner feeling you’re seeking, and how can you carve out space to discover, explore and rest in all the wonder that lies inside of you? The more you connect to that feeling within, the more the external things aligned with that feeling fall into place... often in far more magical ways that your mind could have envisioned :)
 

Let's kick things off together, shall we?

This is why I share all I do, to help you connect to that vast and fulfilling inner world. As the poet Hafez so sweetly puts it, "I wish I could show you when you are lonely or in darkness the astonishing light of your own being." 

I’m holding lots of sacred space this month for you to journey within. If you want some help getting clear on what's calling you this year, join for the New Moon Circle. If you're seeking connection to all the magic you hold within you, join for the Inner Radiance workshop. And if you're ready for an intuition-led year, join for Art of Intuition, back by popular demand to help you attune to all the wisdom you hold within. Full details on all are below, and of course, yoga + meditation classesare on as always.

If you’re called for a deep-dive connection, join me for a private healing sessionwhere you'll explore and rest in those places of deep calm and clarity within you. NYC fam (and all those with fam in NYC!), I’ll be in town January 15 – 20... if you’d like a healing, drop me a note and we’ll work it out :) For my Toronto fam, as always, you can book online here.
 
May this year be full of explorations, inner and outer, that help you reach new heights. May you connect with yourself and the world around you in new depths. May the light of the sun, moon and stars enchant you, and may you never forget the most radiant of lights is right within you.

Here's to a new year full of magic and opportunity!

With love,
ayah

Grateful.

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Hi beautiful souls,

What a year of awakening. Did you feel it?

Deep in the healing. We’ve seen deep and dark shadows. This is good. We cannot heal what we cannot see. Gratitude for all that’s uncovered. We’ve also seen bright and brilliant light. This is good. We cannot heal without hope for what might be. Gratitude for all that’s given us faith.

An important marker on your healing and spiritual journey is the cultivation of gratitude. Taking time to recognize all the good you have and experience, to rest in your joys and the joys of those you love and share space with. But also being grateful for the challenges, knowing these often hold the biggest keys to our personal and collective growth and evolution. Trusting no challenge would arrive on your doorstep if you didn’t have the strength to move through it, if it didn’t have some wisdom and insight and transformation for you.

I’ve been closing my classes lately with a moment of gratitude. To help us seal in the states of calm and clarity we cultivate, but also to remember our roots and the importance of extending our practices outside ourselves. I offer a version here for you, a chance to pause and reflect on your year of healing and growth. I encourage you to make your own gratitude prayer, something to reflect on daily to help you remember all the light that surrounds you.
 

Gratitude for it all

Gratitude first, for yourself. For all the time and space you carved out this year for your healing, your growth, your evolution. Take a moment to reflect on how far you’ve come. The heights you’ve soared to and valleys you’ve climbed from. May you always remember and honour your connection to yourself.

Gratitude to our roots. To the roots of our healing practices and the roots of our own cultures. To all the teachers who have carried these traditions on for us for many thousands of years. May we remember and honour the roots of what we practice and where we come from.

Gratitude to the land we live and practice on. To all those we share it with, and all those who were here long before our arrival. May we remember and honour the roots of where we live and the caretakers of the land.

Gratitude to the earth that nourishes and supports us. May we remember and honour all we receive from the earth, and care for her consciously.

Gratitude to all those that support us. Gratitude to all those whom we have the opportunity to support. May we remember and honour our connection to each other, particularly across boundaries and divisions.

May the effects of our healing benefit not just us, but all those we have the opportunity to share space and community with. May we remember to care for ourselves, for each other, and for the world. We all need it so.

Let's close the year together, shall we?

Join me to reflect on your year and distill and integrate all the wisdom you've gained at this month's New Moon CircleTwo workshops coming in January - Inner Radiance, designed to help you see all the magic you hold within you, and Art of Intuition, back by popular demand to help you attune to all the wisdom you hold within. Full details on all are below. I'm also excited to share the magic of meditation at the 2019 Kickstarter: Wellness for Success workshop on January 4... let me know if you'll be there!

If the holidays have you feeling frenzied or low, come connect in a private healing session (you can book here) or yoga + meditation class. I'm in Toronto from December 4th onward and would love to see you!

Lastly, a gift for you to help bring in some calm in an often swirling-busy, full of feels season. However we've had the opportunity to connect on this wild ride of life, know that I am grateful for you and all you bring to our world. Click here to dive into some holiday peace + calm with me.

Times may be challenging, but in all challenges lie opportunities. May the fires of your heart continue to blaze. May you continue to work towards and for all that touches your heart. And may you care for yourself deeply in the process.

Here's to remembering all you have and all you are, with a full heart.

With love,
ayah

Repairing the World

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Hi beautiful souls,

What a week, what a time, in this world of ours. I shared some of my very raw thoughts and hopes in light of the anti-Semitic shooting in Pittsburgh here. Admittedly, as a Jewish woman, this shook me hard. This is my story, but this is not new. Every single day people are taunted, harmed and killed for what they were born into. Lives are on the line. Black lives. Brown lives. Indigenous lives. Muslim lives. Jewish lives. LGBTQIA+ lives. Disabled lives. Refugee and migrant lives. The list goes on. These are not statistics and stories. There are real people. Like me. Like you.

I don’t believe turning away from it or simply "love + light"-ing over it is the answer. I am deeply spiritual and believe strongly in the power of prayer and meditation, but it needs to be backed up with tangible words and action. Grace responds to effort. 

Alive deeply in me now is one of the guiding lights of my own culture, the notion of Tikkun Olam. Tikkun Olam means repairing the world, actively working to bring it to a state of harmony which is it’s inherent nature. This includes action and justice, particularly for those who are marginalized. Tikkun Olam places the responsibility for repairing what is broken on us. We're here to bring back the harmony that is the true nature of creation. What an opportunity!
 

How do we bring in the harmony?

It is so easy to look away. To forget. To prioritize your comfort over other’s pain. And that is what hurts my heart the most. When you are, please grieve. When you are hurting, please take care of you first and foremost.

But if you have been looking away, from the depths of my heart, please see.Open your eyes. Open your hearts. Do not turn away. Hold your loved ones close. Reach out to your friends when hate crimes occur. Do your work to unpack the biases held within you. Speak up when you hear jokes or taunts about others. Spend your privilege. Use your voice. Use your vote. Pray. March. Cry. Love. Pay attention to what is happening in the world. Pay attention to what is happening within you. Take care of yourself. Take care of others. Take care of the earth.
 
Know that there is no darkness too big for our light. There is no hate too big for our love. But we need to actively bring this light into the world. We need to tangibly demonstrate this love.

Show up for your healing so you can show up for the world’s healing. See your shadow so you can see the world’s shadow. Show up with love and care for yourself so you can show up with love and care for all who walk this earth. Show up for the suffering in the ways your soul guides you. Rest when and how you need, but please do not sleep on us. Please do not turn your back.

In the words of Holocaust survivor Elie Wiesel, “We must always take sides. Neutrality helps the oppressor, never the victim. Silence encourages the tormentor, never the tormented. The opposite of love is not hate, it’s indifference. There may be times when we are powerless to prevent injustice, but there must never be a time when we fail to protest.”

Past the heaviness, there is hope

Yes, things are heavy in our world. But past the heaviness, there is hope. The shadows may be strong, but I also see so much light flooding in. I believe it is a gift to be born in this time, for ourselves and the history that is being written. Here we have the greatest opportunity to heal our wounds. Here we have the greatest opportunity to expand to our highest potential.
 
Many opportunities to come together for healing this month. If you're seeking community support and ideas for action, join for a free community healing circletonight. If you're seeking your own deep healing, join for the New Moon Circle(in Scorpio - the energies are potent for healing!) this Tuesday or a private healing session (you can book here). If you're feeling extra-sensitive, join for the Art of Energy on November 19 to learn how to stay grounded, protected and keep your light shining bright in these trying times. And of course, regular yoga + meditation classes are still on!

What is your soul seeking? The world is seeking that too. What needs healing in you? The world needs that too. What did you come here to do? The world is waiting for you. Your work, your voice, and your presence are integral to all our evolution. If you turn away from yourself and humanity, we all lose. If you show up for yourself and humanity, we all win.
 
Which side of history - yours and the world’s - will you be on?
 
With love,
ayah

Healing Requires Courage

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Hi beautiful souls,

Healing is not about trying to erase or bury the past, hoping some quick and easy fix of happiness will fall down upon us. Healing is about getting in the dirt. Digging deep. Seeing what we may not want to see. Doing what we may not want to do. But trusting ourselves that the way forward is in and through.
 
Healing requires courage. Healing requires trust. Healing requires hope.
 
All those things that you may not want to see, to acknowledge, to hold? Those are your gifts. We cultivate resilience because we fall. We cultivate compassion because we hurt. We cultivate creativity because we don’t conform. Difficult as they are, your wounds hold the gifts to helping you step into your highest and fullest self. Rocks are smoothed through the tumble. Fertile ground is created through the fire. Your challenges shape your highest evolution.
 
Below is a ritual to help look at the things you may not have been looking at. Not to throw them away. To embrace them. Oftentimes once we’re able to see how our wounds have helped us grow, we can more readily release their tight grip on us, forge a clearer path forward, and stand more truly in all our gifts and light.

With care and compassion this month, reflect on some of your challenges and pains. How did they teach you? How did they strengthen you? How did they open you? How have you grown?
 
Let your heart’s wisdom speak. Find the gifts in your wounds: Because of _______ (the wound), I am ________ (the gifts, i.e. resilient, compassionate, creative). What qualities did you cultivate through you’re the difficulty?
 
Super important – for anything you are currently facing, or anything that feels particularly raw or triggering, please seek out the assistance of a qualified professional as you reflect. You need not take on all your healing alone. Seek out guidance. Allow yourself to receive support.
 

Let's practice together, shall we?

The weather is cooling, the days are darkening, and fall is calling us inward. I had an amazing full-circle trip in NYC, and Toronto is keeping me busy on my toes this month with much to share! If you’re seeking guidance and support on your own healing journeys, and finding the gifts in your challenges, I’m always here for healings (you can book here) and yoga + meditation classes (schedule below). For all my corporate folks, check your benefits coverage - if Reiki, yoga, or meditation is covered under your benefits, I'm happy to provide a receipt for you :)

Two big workshops this month: The Art of Intuition is to help you dive deep into your heart’s calling on Sunday, October 14, and Reiki Level I training on Saturday, October 27 will help prepare you for a winter full of self-healing, stress & anxiety-busting, and spiritual & intuitive openings. These two workshops are always full of mind-openings, heart-openings, and big transformations... can't wait to share :)

May you have the courage to be present with your pains. To see the gifts in the challenges. To tell your truths. To fight your battles. To spread your love. May you welcome all the changes of the season with ease and grace.

With love,
ayah  x

There Will Never Be Another Moment Like This

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Hi beautiful souls,

There will never be another moment like this.

Here you are. Breathing this breath. Reading these words. Feet (or seat) grounded right where you are.
 
Pause. Deep inhale. Full exhale. Take it in. How much this moment has to offer you. To teach you. To nourish you.   
 
One we emerge into this world, the only guarantee we have is at some point, at some place, we will leave it. And in between the entry and the exit, we are where we are. In each moment. Breathing each breath. As it is. As we are.
 
Everything else – all that has been, all that will be – simply remains a story.
 
So... Be here. Breathe here. Soak things in here. All the richness, all the fullness this moment has to offer.
 
So often we run from all that is. We don’t want to look at the pain the present may hold for fear it will be too great to overcome. And sometimes we don’t even take in the joy the present holds for fear it will slip right through our fingers.
 
So, if things feel great here and beautiful, are you savoring it? Are you allowing yourself to rest fully in it? Be with it. Inhale.
 
And if things do not feel as great, are you listening? Are you being present with how this pain may somehow hold a teaching for you, how perhaps it might be an integral piece of your becoming? Be with it. Exhale.
 
Here you are. As you are. The person you have fought so hard to become, with all the wisdom you have gained. And too, here you are. As you are. The person who still has so many seeds of becoming yet to sprout, so much still to unfold and unfurl for you.
 
Here you are. In all your beauty. All your glory. All your fullness. Even if it doesn't feel like it right now, I promise it's in you to uncover.

How much opportunity this moment has for us. 

Be here. Breathe here.
 
There will never be another moment like this.

Let's practice together, shall we?

September always heralds change for me, a chance for new beginnings. Even more so this year, after all the intense energy of this summer of eclipses + retrogrades (we made it! #phew). 

I'm so excited to unveil my new healing offering that has been incubating since early this year. All the benefits of a regular healing, plus a personalized guided meditation throughout to keep you anchored, present, and help unlock and access your own intuitive wisdom. More details on my Intuitive Healing Journey are below, as well as upcoming workshops + classes, and reflection questions to help you dive a little deeper into your practice :)

I’ll be in NYC September 21 - 29, and available for remote + local NYC healingsthat week, and local Toronto healings before and after. For my 9-5 client crew, alas- evenings + Sundays are already booked this month (save for one spot on Sunday Sept 9 if you want to snag it!), but September weekday slots are open as are October evening + weekends. As always, you can book directly here.

May you ground right where you are, just as you are, again, and again, and again this month. There is nothing more beautiful than being wide awake to all this moment has to offer you, teach you, and nourish you.

With love,
ayah  x

Calling in your Highest Alignment

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Hi beautiful souls,

A practice for you:

Close your eyes. Take a few deep breaths. Centre your attention in your heart space. Take 5 – 10 minutes to be with the breath, to get quiet and still.

And then, welcome in these questions:

My highest alignment looks like…
My highest alignment feels like… 


Notice any visions, messages or feeling sensations that come as you sit with these questions. Notice both the internal (How does this alignment show up in your body, mind, heart and connection with your soul?) and the external (Where do you see yourself? What are you doing? Who surrounds you?) Allow your intuition to speak fully, clearly. Let all the whispers of your heart be heard.

And then, ask your inner guidance: 

What steps can I take to embody my highest alignment? 

Maybe it’s something you need to release, or something you’re ready to welcome in. Maybe a new practice to begin, or a quality to embody in thought, word and deed. Maybe it’s a big leap, maybe a few smaller steps. Maybe it's something to do solo, or a tug to call in extra support. Whatever steps arise are what you’re ready for. Have courage to take them.
 

Alignment feels like home

In the asana practice of yoga, we talk about alignment a lot. Making sure the body rests in the right posture to receive the maximum benefit of the asana, and protect you from any injuries that often spring up from misalignments. Oftentimes we don’t even realize we’re out of alignment until a teacher gives a certain cue or comes over for an adjustment, and then – ahhhh. We get it. Wefeel it.

But the system of yoga is about so much more than just the physical practice. It's working through the body, breath and mind to find union with our highest self. It's practices and philosophies to help us embody our highest alignment, internally and externally. This is why I show up for my asana practice and meditation daily, and turn to energetic healing again and again. I've tried many practices and healing modalities, but these are the ones that for years and years now have worked for me to truly connect body, mind, heart and soul, and to keep this alignment consistently integrated. 

They are no one-shot magic cure. They take consistent practice and commitment. And yet each time I practice, I feel a coming home. An ease. A deep comfort. And a deep courage and faith in the process even when things feel uncomfortable. That is how I know these practices hold the keys to embodying my highest alignment. And this is why I share them with you with such heart.
 

Let's practice together, shall we?

We're still riding the energetic waves of eclipse season, Mercury Retrograde, Mars Retrograde, and more. The good news? While we may feel a bit more on edge, these energetic shifts are all here to help serve our highest alignment. They clearly illuminate what is no longer serving our highest evolution. If we have the courage to dig deep and look at these shadows, we also have a big opportunity for healing and clearing. And each eclipse and retrograde acts like a portal. If we take time to tune into what our highest alignment looks like and feels like, and have the courage to take bold steps towards that vision, we have a big opportunity to step into our highest evolution and callings - oftentimes quicker than we may expect ;)

I’m in Toronto this whole month (wahoo!), so hope to see you for yoga + meditation classes, and the New Moon Circle, finally back and at our new home at the beautiful (and still intimate :) The Quiet Company studio. Also getting ready to hit the road with my The Art of Intuition deep-dive, coming to Maha Rose in NYC (a longtime dream of mine!) September 22, Health Hut in TorontoOctober 14, and a special PEC spot in the fall :) As well, always here to support you remotely or in-person via healings if you need extra support to heal and release any misalignments, and embody fully your highest alignments.

May you have the courage to see, learn from, and release fully anything that may feel out of alignment, inside and out. May you have the courage to see, trust in, and work towards your highest visions, inside and out. And may you welcome in and practice your highest alignment this month with a spirit of play, so you can root into it fully in time for Fall's power and force.

The doors are opening. May you courageously step through, embodying your highest alignment fully and wholly.

With love, 
ayah 

La Dolce Vita

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Hi beautiful souls,

I’m a couple weeks back from my holiday in Italy, where I was immersed in pleasure, beauty and love as the Italians know so well how to savor. If I didn't have pictures of me jumping out of tiny cars to prove I was there, I may indeed have believed it was all a dream ;)

As I strolled the streets of Rome on my last evening, letting all the magic of the week sink in, I was reminded of one of my favourite mantras that exemplifies and open crown chakra. Located at the top of our head, our crown chakra is the energy centre that connects us to the divine. As the crown chakra truly opens, we begin to understand we are not human beings having spiritual experiences, but rather spiritual beings having a human experience.

We come to this earth plane to learn, to grow, to help each other and to push forward all our evolution. But my time in Italy reminded me we also came to play. To get up and dance without inhibition. To enjoy delicious food without guilt. To kiss under the stars. To marvel at the sunsets and sunrises and all the beauty mama nature has gifted us with. To laugh with each other. To take care of each other. To honor and celebrate love in all its forms. To revel in all the pleasures of this being human.
 

Sweet + simple

In the most serendipitous and unplanned of ways, Italy reminded me that the simple and easy pleasures can be as beautiful, illuminating and soul-nourishing as the deep and complex depths. That the highest truths can be found in both closing our eyes and journeying inward and in opening them and journeying outward. That while all our practices, rituals, studies, and connection to ourselves must be honored, so too should play, laughter, rest, and connection to each other. It’s all divine. It’s all beautiful. It’s all an integral piece of a richly full life.

As many of you know, I’ve spent the last few years diving into some very deep depths, and close with the energy of Kali, the goddess who cuts no corners in helping us clear what we no longer need (especially the bits of our ego!) and isn’t afraid to give us tough lessons to show us our strength and our truth. Italy was a refreshing rest, a chance to relax and float for a bit amongst all those strengthening swims. While I’m certainly not shying from the depths, I’m reminded to find more space to enjoy life’s simple and sweet pleasures and joys. It's been beautiful to weave these into my teachings, healing sessions and my own practices, finding a little more levity amongst all the depths. And who couldn't do with a little more dance parties, luscious dinners, and beautiful flowers? :)  
 

Let's find joy together, shall we? 

It's the summer - what better time to revel in joy, pleasure and beauty? I hope you'll join me in weaving in more sweet and simple pleasures into your day-to-day this month. Our seat of joy is our swadisthana (sacral) chakra, the place that connects us to our creativity, sexuality, sense of joy, and freedom with our emotions. Dive in to some of the practices at the bottom of this email to reconnect to this centre of sweetness!
 
This month, you can catch me at my regular classes at Good Space in Parkdale and The Quiet Company in King West at the schedule below, and as always, for healings + private instruction at my West Queen West studio, remotely, or in your home. I'll be on retreat with my teacher Amma from July 8 - 13, which is sure to be a whirlwind of healing + awakening, as time with her always is! Official New Moon Ceremonies will be back in August, though we'll cover some new moon magic at the Thursday, July 13 Move Light class at Good Space and full moon magic on my Thursday, July 27 classes at The Quiet Co (midday) and Good Space (evening).

I’m encouraging all this talk of sweetness and simplicity because we’ll need this balance with the intense astrology this month. Mars is retrograde from June 26 to August 27, Mercury goes retrograde for a few weeks on July 26, and we have a Solar eclipse on July 12 and lunar eclipse on July 27. All of these events will help us shake up to the surface whatever we have buried. If you want to learn more on how these will affect you, I encourage you to check out my fave astrologer Chani Nicholas and the astral insights curated by Mystic Mamma. If any of these transits or any other circumstances are affecting you intensely, you know where to find me for extra support.

Even amongst this intensity, may this summer remind you of the simplest and sweetest of pleasures. May you make time to laugh, dance and play. And may love, beauty and joy find you in the most serendipitous of ways.

With love, 
ayah 

Full Circles

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Hi beautiful souls,

As I sat down to write to all of you, I noticed a tiny spider journeying across my windowsill. The great weavers of the animal kingdom, spiders symbolize creativity, harmony, and receptivity. It seems this sweet spider had a message for me to help me understand so many of the full circle moments that I’ve been experiencing lately.

I used to think of expansion as being linear, like climbing a mountain. We grow, and yes, sometimes we stumble, but ultimately we climb the mountains of our lives to reach the summit. Sometimes the path takes us up, sometimes down, sometimes even and steady for stretches that allow us to catch our breath. But ultimately, each step is a blaze forward on the path. What we traversed strengthens us, enriches us, helps us to better know the mountain (and ourselves). On this journey, we leave what was behind and keep reaching toward new terrain.

Yet these last couple weeks have me reflecting on all I thought was “complete,” and the serendipitous ways the past has re-emerged into the present. I’ve had the privilege of reconnecting with community, friends, and clients with whom I thought chapters were closed, lessons learned, karma complete. I’ve found myself in circumstances oh-so-similar to ones I’ve been in before, yet this time with fresher eyes and a wiser heart. These full-circle moments have me thinking about the cyclical nature of life. How we revisit the same places, people and circumstances again and again. Sometimes to see how far we’ve come, sometimes to see how close we always have been.
 

No beginning, no end

This is the work I’ve learned through healing too. In my own healing and with my clients, rarely is the process linear and a quick-fix. Many of us hold core wounds we revisit again and again, peeling through layer after layer. If we think one healing session or therapy visit or medicine ceremony is going to get rid of it, we’re in for a big disappointment. This work takes a deep commitment, a willingness to see the whole again and again. The healing is less about ridding ourselves of what we no longer want, but rather embracing it to learn from it,and working through it as a way to come home to our truest selves. But it's not all shadow. In the healing journeys, there is also much light. That too is cyclical. It’s not that we see a plethora of new gifts, more, more, more. Oftentimes we find what was always in us grows bigger and brighter the deeper we go. We come to see how our greatest lights permeate all circumstances and experiences.

It seems this sweet little spider had a message for me. Perhaps expansion isn’t about continuing to take steps upward, leaving behind the old and reaching toward the new. Perhaps expansion is about weaving an interconnected tapestry, tracing around and through as the web grows larger. Rather than the beginnings fading out of sight, they remain deeply embedded as a piece of the whole. Each person, each place, each circumstance becomes an integral piece of the whole of our journey. Always there, never left behind.
 

Let's practice!

Next week I'm off for another full circle experience, a revisit back to Italy exactly ten years after I first visited. Last time I was ticking off all the tourist ‘must-do’s during my first trip to Europe, and this time I’ll be there to celebrate love at a friend’s wedding, and revel in some much needed restoration in the Umbrian countryside. I can’t wait to see what mirrors this trip may have in store, for each journey always seems to hold much.

If you've been feeling the tug to come in again for a healing or a class, consider this your full-circle call! You can catch me for healings the first week of June and from the 18th onward, and for yoga + meditation practice at Good Space in Parkdale and the newly opened Quiet Company studio in King West. Save the date for the next Art of Intuition workshop, a two-part series July 17 & 24 at Health Hut, taking you deep into your light and all the wisdom that lies within you. Lastly, more scoop on my corporate offerings are below. This area has been yet another full-circle expansion for me, allowing me to weave together my history of experience, and share all the practices and tools that helped me stay mindful + zen in my own corporate days :) 

May June bring you many serendipities and much synchronicity, allowing you tointegrate all the beautiful pieces of you into a wide web of magic.

With love,
ayah
 

Easing into Expansion

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Hi beautiful souls,

... and hello spring! Many of us are emerging out of our shells of winter hibernation, and into maximizing every moment outside we can muster. Expansion is in the air!

Of course, I’m thrilled spring is finally (!) here. My extroverted side has loved all the catch-ups, longer walks and fresh new energy. And yet, I noticed some glimmers of resistance from my introverted side. Winter was all about coziness, quiet, solitude. On many fronts – personally and professionally, mind and heart – I am being called out of the cozy, comfortable nest I rested in, and into new frontiers of expansion. Instead of pushing over my resistance, I worked with it. What does expansion really entail? 
 

The calls of expansion

Expansion requires courage. Like a seed beginning to sprout, expansion requires we trust the inertia moving through us, even when we know it’s leading us to places we’ve never been, and away from all the comforts we knew. Expansion can pull up all the fears and self-doubts – “I am just a little seed. Who am I to be a tree?” And so we require an extra dose of courage (and compassion) to look to all our resistances, all that needs healing within us before we can truly expand.

Expansion requires letting go. We are not infinite (at least, not in our human forms!), and so calls for expansion also include calls for release. For making space. Like that little seed cracking through its shell, oftentimes we are called to let go of what was safe and cozy, what held us, all that we’ve known. We need to accept that even though some things may have held a strong purpose before, hanging onto them may in fact be holding us back from new growth. 

Expansion requires grounding. We cannot grow sustainability without a deep connection to our sense of self and our sense of place. If we rush and jump before taking care to build a stable foundation, the first storm will blow us up and out.

Expansion requires trust. Trust in the intertia moving through us. Trust in our capabilities. Trust in all we were designed to grow into. If we’re tuned into the wisdom of our heart, it will oftentimes lead us into expansions that our mind doesn’t quite grasp or understand. This is where we learn to trust ourselves and hold onto the flames of whatever guides us. This is the dance of surrender. Once the seed begins to sprout, it doesn't have much of a choice on going back, does it? :)
 

Easing into it

And, I remembered –  there's no rush. It's all happening at the pace it's meant to happen. So instead of diving headfirst into saying yes to all the things, jumping from one extreme to the other (definitely an old tendency of mine :), I'm easing into this season of expansion. Letting the pressure roll away. Some big changes are underfoot, and I'm reminded it doesn't all need to happen at once, and that the restorative aspects of winter need not vanish. I'm expanding  slowly and steadily, listening to the whispers of my body, heart and spirit along the way. 

Many of these expansions are on the teaching front. I’m thrilled to join the warm, beautiful and community-oriented new yoga + meditation studio Good Space in Parkdale, around the corner from my home healing studio. I'll be teaching yoga there a few times a week, and meditation on Wednesdayevenings. I’m also hosting another Art of Energy workshop on May 10 with The Quiet Company at Health Hut (back by popular demand, as the last one sold out quick!), and a New Moon Ceremony on May 15 where we’ll explore this theme of expansion together, emerging brighter + stronger into spring.

On a personal front, I’m gearing up for visit to Italy for a dear friend's wedding. I’ll be away June 7 – 17, so book in your healings this month and come join for a class (or a few!) before I’m off!

In whatever ways you are expanding – body, mind, heart, spirit –  may you ease into them gently, holding steady in your courage, your roots, and your trust. May you release all that is no longer serving your expansion with gratitude and grace. And may you shine brighter than ever as you step into these new frontiers.

With love,
ayah

Blissful Balance

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Hi beautiful souls,

Balance is in the stars, the skies, and the earth right now… and of course, within you too. 

Spring Equinox marked a day of balance between the light and the dark in our skies, the yang energy of the sun and the yin energy of the moon. This energy is still with us as day and night are mostly equal. We are just coming off a full moon in Libra, the sign of fairness, equality and harmony. The sign of the balanced scales encourages us to find this inner balance, and the full moon likely helped illuminate some areas that were off-balance. Mercury is retrograde, an astrological period that encourages us to relax, rest, and review. And yet, we’re also in Aries, the sign of bold action, creation and movement. There's friction in this timing, but friction can also be a huge catalyst for growth. 
 
It’s not just in the stars. It’s in the earth too, all around us. For those of you in Ontario, our weather is in that in-between state. Not quite the depths of winter, yet not quite the full bloom of spring. Our bodies aren’t quite sure what to make of it. And that cold that seems to be going around everywhere? When our energy is off balance, our immune system becomes compromised. Our bodies often get sick to force us to rest and recalibrate.
 
Above all, this potential for balance always lies within us. Our surroundings have simply created the perfect storm of energy to inspire us to reflect on, discover, and embody our own inner balance.
 

Finding the Equilibrium

Personally, I was super in yang mode in February, making, going, and doing. As you all know, the universe put a screeching halt to that when my pup went in for emergency surgery (he is doing well now and near fully recovered – thank you for all the love + well wishes!). I took the cue, and March was all about yin mode, resting, receiving, and nurturing. The pendulum swung hard one way, and hard the other way. In April, I’m inspired to find the balance on a daily basis... and I'd love to have you join me :)

Which way has the pendulum been swinging for you? Have you been in fierce yang mode, planning, doing, creating, thinking, go-go-go-ing? Or have you been in a super yin flow, opening, receiving, resting, intuiting, nurturing, just relishing in be-ing? Both are beautiful, in balance. Swing too hard one way for too long, and life will throw you some big curveballs to encourage some more balance internally and externally.
 
In this new month and fresh season, I encourage you to set your spring intentions and practices to find greater balance and harmony. What’s one big goal you’d like to plan, create, and act towards? And each day, can you make some space for an activity or action outside your comfort zone, planning, doing or giving something towards a new personal frontier?
 
On the flip side, what’s one thing you’d like to welcome in, open up to receiving? Something you're fully open to surrendering toward, without any hard action, plans or stories on your end? And what’s one yin activity you can do each day, allowing yourself to just blissfully be without any agenda? 
 

Blooming into Spring

If you're called to set these intentions together, I'd love to have you for this month’s New Moon Ceremony, focusing on the theme of new beginnings. This sacred space is designed for healing, reflection, and the planting of beautiful new seeds. For those of you craving some deep self-care, self-reflection and spiritual opening, I welcome you to join me for my bi-annual Reiki Level I training. This day is deeply transformative, and a beautiful opportunity to shed old layers and connect deeply to your heart, soul, and truest essence. If you’re looking to cultivate some deep balance amongst the body, mind, heart and spirit, come join me for an in-person or remote healing or private yoga or meditation teaching.
 
Have fun with your intentions and practices. You may be surprised how beautiful it is to play on the other side of your innate tendencies. And, you may discover some blissful energy and wisdom that has always been resting within you :)

With love, 
ayah

Where do you go when things get difficult?

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Hi beautiful souls, 

You know those times where everything is rolling ever-so-smooth, and then... BAM. It all flips upside down. Such has been my week. I was on a high the last few weeks. Super busy, yes, but really feeling like everything in like was falling in to place so… perfectly. I was like aha, I really get it, this business of holding the space of joy, light, presence, trust and love all the time, no matter what. I was high-vibing at its highest. February was a whirlwind, and my last week was even busier, but I had it scheduled like clockwork. All I needed to do was show up and be present with it all.

And then – crash. I was en-route to a full day of in-office healings when I got a call from the doggy daycare I had just dropped my pup Otis off at. He was playing, let out a huge yelp, fell, and lost control of his front legs. And just like that, my perfectly planned schedule went out the window. I went up to get him, and multiple vet visits later, had him in surgery that afternoon.

"Oh, you thought you had it all figured out?” said the universe "Well, here you go. You aced that last level. Time to level up. Can you still hold that joy, light, presence, trust and love when the curveball is thrown? When all the concerns of earth call you in, can you still hold your highest connection?"
 

Through the fire

And so here I am. Facing a big exam on my practicing what I preach, on holding the full integrity of all my practices through the fire. I’ve been teaching many meditation and mindfulness workshops lately, extolling the benefits of being here now, accepting instead of resisting, and responding instead of reacting. In the eye of this particular storm, I see the pain comes from reliving how things were before, or worrying about what life will be like moving forward. When I bring myself back to now, I fall into full surrender, knowing there is nothing I can do in this moment but trust the good hands he’s in, and pray and hold the faith for his smooth recovery. 
 
I’ve also taught many of my Art of Intuition workshops, sharing how we can stay connected to our hearts and hear and trust the call of our intuition. In all this, I can see the pain of letting my mind run amok, and the peace that comes when I rest in my heart and trust the guidance I am receiving. I have used each and every one of the practices and tools I teach to stay connected to my inner guidance and quiet the waves of my mind.
 
I convened with my healing students this month, and shared that this life of a healer was both rewarding and challenging beyond measure. That it was no easy path, and that life would flip things around for you time and time again until your connection to all that lies beyond this material world is deeply rooted, so that you may be a strong support and compassionate bridge for others. In all this, life was flipped upside down again, and I was placed in the fire of learning how the pain of the human heart can awaken more compassion in us. How resting in the void of the unknown can deepen our connection to all the guidance that is always available to us, and show us all we really have is right now, as it is.
 
And with my clients, I’ve been guiding many this month on being present with what is, not looking to erase the pains, but rather integrate them and let them strengthen you, help you become a better human. In all this, my question is not how can I numb, distract from and override what I feel, but rather, how can I be with it gently and sweetly? How can I let this teach me, strengthen me, and awaken me?
 
I am human; none of this has been easy. The last few days have been an emotional rollercoaster, and I have remembered these are all practices, not perfects. It is a constant dance of retraining the mind and surrendering to all that is. But in the face of something I never would have wished for, I am seeing the grounding I have in my practices, my principles, and most importantly, my heart. My trust, faith, and willingness to surrender were tested, and through this, they have been been strengthened. My ability to remain connected with my highest self and highest energies was tested, and through this, my connection and vibration has elevated. Diamonds become brilliant through heat and pressure, and through this, somehow, I have brightened.  
 

Where do you go when things get difficult?

Prem Baba, a beautiful teacher I’ve met in India, asked a question at one of his satsangs: Where do you go when things get difficult?
 
I ask that to you now. The energy of last night’s full moon highlighted this for many of us. Get quiet. Dig in. Where do you go when things get difficult? Do you numb or nourish? Do you shut out or listen? Do you override or allow? Do you distract or tune in? Whatever you do, does that feel in alignment with your heart, with your soul? Where do you go now, and where do you want to go when things get difficult?
 
We are human, and life is life. We came to this earth school to experience the duality of bliss and sorrow, of joy and struggle, of love and pain. We came to learn some big lessons, and often times this duality can be the greatest teacher for our soul. Don’t shy away from the difficulties. Dive in and let them awaken you.
 
Otis is recovering slowly and surely at the clinic (though prayers + good vibes for the little guy are always welcome!), and I am feeling grounded back in my heart and ready to elevate to this new level I’ve been called to. I have leaned on my support systems hard the last few days, and I am full with more gratitude that my heart’s work allows me to be a support and guide for others through the ebbs and flows of life. Each of my own trials awakens more compassion in me, and each allows me to clear more resistances and allow more higher energy. The highs and the lows are both my teachers, and for both I am grateful. If there’s any way I can be of service to you in healing and gaining perspective through your own trials, please reach out.

Life will bring you joys and life will bring you pains. The joys teach us faith, trust and show us all that is possible, all we are reaching for. The pains awaken the strength, resilience and compassion in us. Hold both sacred in your heart, for both hold the key to your highest growth. 

With love,
ayah